so I have this friend, we will call him Preston, that I have become extremely close with over the past couple of months. Last year I felt somewhat attracted to him, but he never seemed like someone I would want to date because he always seems to be negative, moody, self-centered, and he always sees the glass as half empty instead of half full, and me I am the complete opposite. I always look for the good in people, I am always happy, I put everyone else before myself, and the glass is always full in my life. I have been proven to many times in my life of 20 years that life is too short to dwell onthe little things, that in the end do not matter. But for some reason against all my will, I think I may have fallen for him. The thing is when we are together everything just seems to fit. It's weird. I know he cares about me, but I also know that he does not want a relationship anytime soon. He is the type of person that has his goals and dreams and no one else fits in his plan besides him. It's just really confusing because I have been feeling like we are dating just without the title and physical aspects of a relationship. Whenever something good or bad or anything at all, we call each other. We go like 2 days without seeing each other and it feels like years. I just feel like I can be myself with him and he will not judge me. He has never met anyone like me and I know that because of the way he reacts to things I do. I haven't said anything to him about how I feel because I am afraid of ruining what we have, but what do we have? a friendship? should I say something? what would I even say?
fireflies : owl city
i'd like to make myself believe
that planet earth turns slowly
it's hard to say that i'd rather stay
awake when i'm asleep
because my dreams are bursting at the seems
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