i want someone to love me

so i am sitting here alone on a thursday night in college working on my knitting project (a scarf) that i should have finished already but i started it and then didnt pick it up again for a couple of weeks....just like i started this blog and i have not written for a couple of weeks....someone close to me recently told me that i know how to begin everything and anything, but i never follow through and finish them. After hearing that i really began to think about that comment and i realized that as much as i didn't want to admit it, she was right.

Over the past couple of weeks I realized that I have been sitting here home alone and I realized there is so much out there for me in this world. I know I was meant to make a change but that is not going to happen while I am sitting here not finishing things that I have started and not getting out in the world.

I have been extremely lonely for these past couple of weeks while all this time by myself made me realize that there is so much out there, it also made me realize how i do want someone else in my life but i have been searching too hard. Everyone says that things come when you least expect them and i have seen recently that this is true. So from here on out I am not going to focus so much on finding someone I am going to find myself and hopefully that someone will find me!

who i am : nick jonas

i want someone to love me

for who i am

i want someone to need me

is that so bad?

i wanna break all the madness

but it's all i have

i want someone to love me

for who i am

i remember what you wore on our first date

Is anyone else getting annoyed with Taylor Swift? I mean she is not extremely talented. She has had some good songs, but nothing spectacular. We understand Kanye West took your moment away from you that you will never get back and no one deserved that, but seriously to sweep the CMA's and AMA's was ridiculous! I do believe she works hard, but there were other artist's who clearly deserved those awards over her. I am not saying I am not a fan of her, but it is seriously getting annoying hearing and seeing her everywhere! Anyone agree?

two is better than one : boys like girls featuring taylor swift

there's so much time

to figure out the rest of my life

cause everything is never as it seems

so I have this friend, we will call him Preston, that I have become extremely close with over the past couple of months. Last year I felt somewhat attracted to him, but he never seemed like someone I would want to date because he always seems to be negative, moody, self-centered, and he always sees the glass as half empty instead of half full, and me I am the complete opposite. I always look for the good in people, I am always happy, I put everyone else before myself, and the glass is always full in my life. I have been proven to many times in my life of 20 years that life is too short to dwell onthe little things, that in the end do not matter. But for some reason against all my will, I think I may have fallen for him. The thing is when we are together everything just seems to fit. It's weird. I know he cares about me, but I also know that he does not want a relationship anytime soon. He is the type of person that has his goals and dreams and no one else fits in his plan besides him. It's just really confusing because I have been feeling like we are dating just without the title and physical aspects of a relationship. Whenever something good or bad or anything at all, we call each other. We go like 2 days without seeing each other and it feels like years. I just feel like I can be myself with him and he will not judge me. He has never met anyone like me and I know that because of the way he reacts to things I do. I haven't said anything to him about how I feel because I am afraid of ruining what we have, but what do we have? a friendship? should I say something? what would I even say?

fireflies : owl city

i'd like to make myself believe

that planet earth turns slowly

it's hard to say that i'd rather stay

awake when i'm asleep

because my dreams are bursting at the seems

the introduction

Hello World!



This is my first post as you can see...ha ha! I feel that I have so much to say and sometimes I go unheard or I feel that I can not say it. I don't really know how many people will even see this but I figured why not? This is a place where I am going to be able to talk about anything and everything I feel, nothing is off limits, so never hesitate to ask me anything.

For starters my name is Rose and I am a young girl trying to find her place in this crazy world. I know I am meant to do big and great things. I have always loved the entertainment industry and I know that, that is the place where I belong. Music is my life and it has always been a dream of mine to sing. I want to sing and I want everyone to hear me sing. I have confidence in myself that one day I will stand on a stage in an arena and everyone will hear my song. I will change the world and not only in the entertainment industry, but I will change the world for the better. I want to help every single person in this world with anything that is and will be in my power. Call me naive, call me silly, call me ambitious, call me a dreamer, but I know that I will do everything I dream to do and more because I know I can do anything I set my mind to do.

On my way to fame I am planning on making some life changes. First and for most I must get into shape. To be in the entertainment industry it is no secret that you must be in shape, but even more importantly I need and want to be more healthy for myself. Being a college student I have picked up many bad habits, but I am willing to change those bad habits and trade them in for good, healthy habits. I have never been a drinker, smoker, or ever been into any type of drugs. My weight issues are strictly from lack of exercise and not watching what I eat. This will be a journey and hopefully you, whoever you are, can and will help me get to where I want/need to be.

Through all of this maybe I will be able to find some love....ha ha! That is some wishful thinking!

One day everyone will know my name. One day I will be great. One day I will sing at the top of my lungs and everyone will be able to hear. One day I will be be a legend.

Well I guess I should call it a night.....tomorrow, well I guess today, is the day that I start to change my life for the better and one step at a time I will achieve my goal!

goodnight world =)